March 9: keep it going and going
stop the madness...
well, it's been an interesting couple of days. i had planned on going to
a party over the weekend, during the biggest rivalry at my alma mater, and
of course i got the date of the party wrong by a week. that's been
happening to me lately. i tried to go to a dental appointment last
thursday and took the time off from work when actually it's this thursday.
i'm worried about the latest show with jelly educational theater. i'm
worried for two reasons...one it's bringing out a lot of my prejudicies
that i try to pretend that i don't have, or at least can overcome in my
enlightened 90s guy kind of way.
but oh no...they seem to strike at the oddest of moments.
i will be able to deal with this though. i have to. and actually as josh
said, it's probably my aquarian conscience playing havoc a lot more than
anything really major.
i do know that i don't know my lines and i have 5 rehearsals left before
this show goes up. hmmmmm. i've been in worse predicaments (especially
with the first and second shows i did for them) but i'm supposedly over
that hump and i feel the dregs of not caring about learning my lines
because i'm not being called for rehearsal creeping back up on me.
got the work scare as well today. patrick was talking about the dread he
had going into work and i was nodding because i'm dreading this position
i'm in...his boss called him on some work that he'd let pile up on his
desk for a while. well guess who got called on being late (7 minutes) two
days in a row. argh...and i can't stand it. the thought that someone
doesn't enjoy/like/appreciate/respect/trust/i don't know what word to use
here EVERYTHING that i do, is one of those mind-numbing and depression
inducing obstacles that i wrestle with every day. that coupled with the
overtime comment yesterday and the fact that I have stuff piled up on my
desk caused several small ulcers to form today.
i talked with jessika today regarding the next issue of THE CAN
she's the managing editor of the publication.
i didn't do so well this issue. but there's still the next issue to redeem myself, when i'm out
from under the auspices of laHARDy.
we swapped pictures via email today and i think we're going to become
better online friends (she's lives in either alberta or montreal -- don't
remember) and i respect her a lot. we're both extremely cynical and are
fed up with our president who is not as forthright as he pretends to be.